Posts Tagged ‘Personal’
Saturday, July 18th, 2009
Almost one and a half years ago, on January 23rd 2008, I have finished reading George Orwell’s legendary book “1984″. Immediately after finishing it I was inspired and I had an idea and I wrote it down into a note I still keep to this day:
A website called “DoublePlusHuman.com” – based on the notion that by being real self thinking, inquisitive, exploratory humans we can overt any threat of dystopian future. The name is a reference to 1984′s Newspeak and translates as Super Human. The intended message is “Be as human as possible and you’ll be free.”
“1984″ was a bit of a mind chow (or mind f*ck for a more technical term), but what was obvious to me was that the whole point of the totalitarian regime that ruled the fictional Oceania in the book was dehumanization. It occurred to me that the root cause of all tyranny in the real world, all loss of liberty and all oppression is dehumanization. It is the idea that a human individual must repress his or her urges, must sacrifice himself for the society, the so called greater good. It is this idea that has humans in constant fear of each other and consequential constant desire to control each other, as absolutely as possible.
I felt defiant as I was reading through the end of the book, as the tyranny of illusion and repression of humanity was winning. Being enamored by the book’s “NewSpeak” a hack of its own language came to my mind as a pronouncement of protest: DoublePlusHuman!. DoublePlusHuman, not the compromised, self repressed and self sacrificed human, but a human in all its glory, in its “full bloom”, pursuing the maximum of potential and letting nobody, NOBODY, control him or her against his or her will.
I immediately registered a domain name, DoublePlusHuman.com, and put it aside. Year and a half passed as I was exploring myself and evolving my ideas. I became a staunch support of voluntary interaction as opposed to coercive governance. I strived to rediscover myself, to find what I truly love to do, what I can do that would make me happiest and provide most value.
I went through this process twice. First time I seemed to have reached wrong conclusions. I went through it too fast and too keenly and as a consequence I ended up trying to jumpstart two projects that went nowhere (Site2Review.com and Gamelapse.com) all the while knowing somewhere in the back of my head that it was really DoublePlusHuman.com which I was supposed to be doing.
So I redid the process, but this time I used a whole book on the topic, “How To Finally Find What You Love To Do And Get Paid For Doing It” by Brian Kim (long title, short but brilliant book). I gave myself weeks of almost aimless floating about, doing only what I had to do and otherwise just exploring, reading what I want, doing what I want and trying to answer the dozens of questions I was supposed to answer and wanted to answer about my talents and interests. I deliberately, prior to finishing this process, read Stefan Molynex’ “Real Time Relationships”, another brilliant book which helped deepen my introspection and further enticed me to trust my feelings and senses.
And prior to all that I was already armed with ideas and encouragement from Napoleon Hill’s “Think and Grow Rich” as well as the simplified “The Hidden Secret in Think and Grow Rich” by Brian Kim.
And I ultimately, and not to a too big surprise found my way. It wasn’t so far off from prior conclusions in that I again concluded that what I really love to do is web publishing, but doing it my way, as a one man show envisioning something in its entirety and then creating it from the beginning to the end. I do the conceptualization, web design and finally write most of the content. As I was approaching this conclusion it became more and more obvious that what most embodied what I love to do at this point in time was exactly everything I hoped DoublePlusHuman.com could be.
And so I ditched everything else, put the more important projects (Nuxified.org and Libervis.com) into a maintenance mode (in which they were for some time anyway), and made DoublePlusHuman my main project. Couple of months passed and here she is.
I personally believe that it is the best web site I ever made and the best project I ever started. It most perfectly fits who I am and it fits a grander plan that I now finally have for my life. I’ve never felt the kind of sense of direction I do now. My puzzles are finally being put together. DoublePlusHuman.com is a start of a new era for me.
The site is made to be accessible to the widest possible audiences, complies with standards, is compatible with screen reading devices, has a mobile version and allows people to switch width to short or wide depending on the size of their screens. It will contain original content and links to content published elsewhere categorized in the same way. Forms of content are articles and media (video, audio and images) and main categories are “philosophy”, “technology” and “culture” representing the means to the ends that are the goal of the site: self improvement, personal freedom and social change.
I plan, for the first time, to be producing original inspiring and moving video infotainment on a semi-regular basis to attract and inspire the readers and build a community. And of course there is a business aspect to it that is also better worked out from the beginning than with any project I did before. Hence the unobtrusive neatly positioned sidebar ad and the amazon store. I am not ashamed of this. I will be able to monetize this site only if I provide enough people with enough value! I aim to provide value, not to make money! Money must be a mere side effect. And since I love what I’m doing here this shouldn’t be a problem. I no longer see failure as failure, but useful information for success. (And needless to say, money will be necessary for the achievement of the mentioned grander plan. )
All this said, there is no official launch announcement. I simply start with publishing articles and the first is a series of articles defining the key terms of the site: “self improvement”, “personal freedom” and “social change”. The first one is already published: “Defining Self Improvement”.
This seems like a good beginning, defining the key terms, setting up the basic paradigm.
Monday, January 5th, 2009
There’s an ongoing meme chain that’s spread to this part of the blogosphere and I thought it’s interesting enough for me to follow it. This blog is called “memeverse” afterall.
I’ve copied the questions from Thomas Jollan’s entry.
Q: What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
A: I took the blue pill and alienated a friend. Nothing was same since.
Q: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for the next year?
A: I didn’t really make any explicit resolutions, albeit for what I could find marked here mostly not, except I made progress in finding out more about myself (what I love to do etc.). I grew quite a bit mentally in 2008. For 2009, I had my resolution back in August.
Q: Did anyone close to you give birth?
A: Amazingly enough, yes, my youngest sister. No she didn’t plan it. :S
Q: Did anyone close to you die?
Q: What countries/states did you visit?
Q: What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A: Even more confidence. Maybe more self-discipline. More clarity of purpose. More money.
Q: What was your biggest failure of the year ?
A: Nothing terrible, but one thing that does come to mind is I’ve probably taken a little too much time thinking and analyzing and not enough doing stuff.
Q: What was your biggest achievement ?
A: I finally put an end to Freedomware Gamefest? LOL Nope.. Well, I’d have to say lots of personal growth, at least on the mental side… But I still have ways to go. I don’t remember a year where I had so many discoveries and when I felt so empowered as in 2008.
Q: Did you suffer illness or injury?
A: Nothing special.
Q: What was the best thing you bought?
A: Didn’t buy a lot of things, but among the things I did, I think it’d be my 640GB hard drive. Finally, no more disk space worries.
Q: Whose behavior merited celebration?
A: I don’t know.
Q: Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
A: Previously mentioned former friend T. But it didn’t make me really depressed. The fact that it meant as much to me is more of a weakness though. And I’m beginning to care less.
Q: Where did most of your money go?
A: Rent, bills and savings.
Q: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
A: Hmm.. hard to say. My life ahead and things I could accomplish? Easier said than done though, of course.
Q: What song will always remind you of 2008?
A: Uh.. dunno.. bunch of awesome trance tunes. Let’s just say I listened to a lot of trance internet radio.
Q: Compared to last year, are you:
* happier or sadder ? Happier.
* thinner or fatter ? About the same I think.
* richer or poorer ? Hmm.. same or perhaps slightly richer, but given the crisis this barely matters at all.
Q: What do you wish you’d done more of ?
A: Going out… Maybe traveling, but that’s prohibitively expensive for me and my goals atm.
Q: What do you wish you’d done less of ?
A: Worrying and procrastinating.
Q: How did you spend Christmas ?
A: With my family, except for dad and a sister who is working on a cruiser in the Gulf of Mexico. I spent the evening of the second day of xmas with dad though.
Q: Did you fall in love in 2008?
Q: How many one-night stands?
Q: What was your favourite TV programme ?
A: I probably watched least TV this year. I watch video podcasts via miro, youtube and such, but can’t pick an absolute favorite yet. Stefan Molyneux’ video podcast is a good candidate.
Q: Did you make a friend with anyone that you didn’t know this time last year?
A: Probably not. I met people online though.
Q: What was your greatest musical discovery?
A: None really. I loved trance. I still love trance. I like some ambient. A friend was exposing me to some rock music, but me and acoustic music.. aren’t quite compatible. Electronic sounds all the way!
Q: What did you want and get?
A: That hard drive I mentioned, some extra memory, some silver (not plates, coins! lol )
Q: What did you want and not get?
A: I planned on getting a touchscreen smartphone like Neo Freerunner by the end of the year, but didn’t due to financial conservatism. The crisis that announced itself big time in October cemented that decision. I’m not buying any luxury items any time soon, unless I hit a pot of gold..
Q: What was your favourite film of this year?
A: V for Vendetta
Q: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
A: I was with my family, same as christmas, eating cake and talking… 24.
Q: What one thing would have made you year immeasurably more satisfying?
A: Hmm, I’m not sure. Maybe if everything I discovered in 2008 I discovered earlier and then everything I’m about to do in 2009 or even further in the future, like 2010, I actually already did in 2008. That would make me a rich boy right now.
Q: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
A: Fashion? I don’t dig fashion. I’m an individualist. Ahem.. I didn’t buy much new clothing, if any..
Q: What kept you sane?
A: I did! Duh.
Q: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
A: I don’t really track celebrities.. but briefly I felt enamored by Natalie Portman, that is, Evey Hammond in V for Vendetta. I remember at that time thinking that I probably couldn’t have a romantic relationship with someone who isn’t a voluntaryist and wouldn’t share the path I as a voluntaryist choose. So this was more about the character than an actor actually..
Q: What political issue stirred you the most?
A: The fact that people still think it’s ok to impose their “solutions” by force through government. More specifically, the Obama mania in USA, all of the bail outs across the world, the financial crisis (which was caused by political action) etc.
Q: Who did you miss?
A: My sister on the cruiser.
Q: Who was the best new person you met?
Q: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008
A: If I genuinely oppose violence I cannot support a government as we know it. If chaos is caused by violence then it follows that there is more chaos when there is violence legitimized through government than it would be if it wasn’t so. Order therefore emerges when there is no violent imposition. Free market is the ultimate form of order. Government and collectivism, including the idea of public property, is chaos, and we’re living in it. We call it order because we haven’t experienced anything more orderly than this. Compared to real order, though, this is chaos.
Q: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
A: Can’t think of anything. EDIT: Scratch that, this isn’t a song, but has what I could call the sound of 2008 for me: “Remember, remember the fifth of November, the gun powder treason and plot.. ” Get the rest in the movie or a comic. It’s packed with powerful quotes.
Sunday, December 21st, 2008
Life can be pretty crazy. Some people might say I have no life or that I have missed so much of what life has to offer, but the thing is; it is not their life, it is mine. There is no rule that says that I should compare, weigh and measure my life according to the standards and scales of other people, unless I accept this as a rule.
So with all of the scales thrown off what’s left is only myself and the whole universe around me, not just the physical universe, but the universe of ideas, my memeverse, one from which understanding of the physical comes from too.
Occasionally I feel like I’m on the brink of some spectacular realization, but it keeps eluding me. Somehow, though, I believe the day is coming when I will find it. I am learning to be more patient with myself, be more observant of my emotions, reactions, failures and successes and thus more prone to evolution.
I had this feeling just tonight. It’s like I’m seeing the dots which are part of the bigger picture, but I cannot yet quite connect them.
Some of those dots are:
- I own two awesome domain names: memenode.com and memeverse.com. Somehow that seems significant.
- I have a bit of a fascination with the concept of memes and otherwise like to live in a free form mental world…
- I like free thinking and free form philosophy.
- I like virtual online worlds and gaming, yet I’m not a regulard nor “hard core” gamer.
- I like high tech and software, the freer (libre) the better.
- I am a passionate voluntaryist who believes in emergent order, free markets and total individualism.
- I am emotional, sensitive and easily inspired and moved.
And I feel like there is a thread binding all of the above things into one, a thread which if I discover may become a seed of my life’s work, the most revolutionary, most profitable and most exciting and motivating project I have ever done.
This is because I believe that all of my interests (likes, tendencies, beliefs) are all pieces of the puzzle that is my self and it is my self that is seeking to do things that will lead it to ultimate success. So I don’t quite dismiss certain interests just because they don’t fit the current paradigm. I sometimes worry about activities which right now seem like waste of time, but other times wonder; the fact I have them means they are part of my self and if it’s my self that needs to succeed than that self must include those interests. Therefore perhaps instead of trying to shut some of them down, I should observe, listen, effectively listening to myself and searching for the links between all of them – that elusive thread.
I will have to be thinking about this.
Monday, October 6th, 2008
Just after 5 AM today I saw a flash of light in the nightsky when I looked through the window of my room. It looked like a pretty light star suddenly appeared and disappeared in a matter of a second.
I immediately thought it to be notable because, even as someone who likes to observe meteorites, I don’t quite remember seeing this. It’s just a flash of light, but every time I see a flash of light in the night sky it is either an airplane (multiple recurring flashes and usually quite obvious), iridium flares (which last more than this flash lasted, which was practically a blink of an eye) or meteorites which leave a trail and also last longer.
And I don’t recall myself being prone to hallucination either. I saw it!
So it seems anomalous. I should scour the astronomy related sites later to see if maybe I saw something others have noticed. Perhaps I witnessed a distant supernova explosion? That’d be cool.
In any case I love seeing something unusual in the sky, for some reason, even if it is a mere anomalous flash of light. It makes the universe feel more real and exciting, as it should.
Wednesday, September 24th, 2008
Good morning to me.
Last night I’ve had a little merger happen in my head. It is between the concept of “self growth” and “self liberation”. I somehow saw them as parallel but separate processes yet they are not. I now believe that self improvement, self help or self growth, however you wanna call it, are in essence self liberation. And it’s a big industry because people yearn for someone to tell them how to succeed, but this desire to “succeed”, be it a specific desire for money, health or just general happiness is in fact rooted in a single thing: liberty – self liberation.
People buy self help books, seminars etc. because they want to be free, desperately.
But most of that material rarely brings them towards this state of freedom because most of it operates with the false assumptions about the world and about the prevalent social structures.
Funny thing, just as I tuned in to a trance station to listen to, it played a track which at one point had Morpheus from Matrix so eloquently say this:
“It is a world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.”
And I laughed out loud! In a state that I am right now I am beginning to truly feel that I have escaped from this world – I am free. I no longer believe the lies, no longer see the illusion and no longer fear as much as I did, because I know it’s all not real. I know that I have the power. And now that I do I can continue to grow my liberty to the point at which I can LITERALLY bend the illusion most other people call reality. The Matrix analogy is perfect, because that’s exactly what happens. People freed from the world of lies become Neo’s and are capable of BENDING the reality in which other people live. Why can we bend reality? Because it’s actually NOT real. It’s reality to THEM, not us. We know how it works now and so we can manipulate it.
But I’ve learned, however, another incredible fact last night – that I’m actually only at the very beginning of my freedom journey. I somehow thought that I’m already pretty advanced, but then I realized – wait a second – I am barely pass the “pain” stage, and I still feel pain sometimes when I see how upside down and wrong the world is. And the pain stage is the first stage of the process of becoming free. That means I still have a way to go and it also means that the way I feel now is actually just scratching the surface of what’s coming.
You know people. Freedom rocks. You should try and discover it. The thing people will rarely tell you is that you don’t need to change the world to become free. You don’t need government to grant you freedom. The only one you need is YOU. You have freedom by nature! I wish I could describe how that feels.
If you wish to talk to me or wish me to give you some pointers join #libervis on irc.freenode.net. Ironically, “libervis” means “most freely” and today I feel most free than ever.
Thursday, September 4th, 2008
I am working on the selection of my major new venture and in doing so I tend to browse through some inspiring or helpful material relevant to the process of selecting candidates and making the right choice, coming up with the right strategy for the achievement of my major goal.
One of the posts I’ve read is about focusing on what other people need instead of money, when you want to develop a successful business. Of course, since I know that this doesn’t mean I shouldn’t also take into account what I want as well, I’ve started thinking. And since I like to think “bottom up” or foundations first I ended up coming up with a sort of hierarchical image of what fits where. The result is the following, and I think it might be helpful to.. whoever you are.
The question “Who I am?” is the central question for anyone who wishes to attain great success, however they define it. What I find as constituting the answer to that question comes from our genes and experiences or our “hardware” and “raw sensory data” respectively. Our hardware is everything that we are from the moment we were born (or before). From that moment on our experiences shape who we are today. They are nothing but the data that we perceive with our sensors and then proceed to process with our minds.
And that in turn results in two basic things: beliefs and knowledge or data and know how and “love” how, or what we know how to do and what we love to do (are inclined to do), which is constituted of our skills and interests. Those are our “programs”, sets of instructions we know how to execute.
Of course, the two tend to intermingle. Our programs use the data and the data can influence the content of our instructions. Together they form who we are. Thus, I am a voluntaryist, atheist, web publisher, web designer, enthusiast about technology, electronic music etc.
It is from who we are then, that we extract our desires. Desire is an emotion and emotions are part of our hardware (like firmware). Specifically the program of desire is integral to the system which defines the direction that we are likely to go in life.
Desires are potential goals that we would set for ourselves. From my own learned belief, I think it is best to write down all of the desires as goals and then among them pick one which if accomplished would help accomplish most of the others – that goal is what would serve as your purpose at this time of your life and until it’s achieved. It is the question: “What do I want to get?”. I have my answer.
But to achieve this, no matter what “The Secret” tells you, it is not enough to desire it. That’s where faith (self-confidence), planning and persistence comes in. I am in the planning stage.
And in that planning stage we inevitably face the question: “How do I get this?”. The answer must come from the answer to the question: “What do I want to give?”.
As you can see, you can’t hope to answer any of these questions without knowing the answer to “Who I am”. In fact, answering these questions seems to be a part in answering the first one. It’s all interconnected. You can’t achieve anything without giving anything. If your goal is money, you wont get it without giving anything.
But pay attention to the word “want” in this last question. You can give something, but is it what you want to give? If your goal is money, you can get any sort of a job doing anything and get it, but will that job be something you want to do? Most people who want money make the mistake of “doing anything I have to do to get it”, and they will, but that’s like taking a bargain of sorts and seldom, if ever, results in the kind of success they hope for.
This is because you’ll be most effective in giving what you want to give rather than what you have to give. Doing what you don’t really want to do, which isn’t congruent with who you are, is akin to putting a router in a job of graphics processing. It doesn’t quite work out. A router is most effective in routing network traffic.
But there’s a catch, and it’s an important one. Is what you want to give in line with what a lot of other people want to get? Is there a need or desire (demand) for what you’d be giving?
Ultimately, the best question to answer then becomes: What is it that I want to give that a lot of the other people need or want?. This way you strike the gold, perhaps literally. You are aligning what you’re best at offering with what most people want. You’re capturing the formula for releasing your absolute maximum potential. Isn’t that awesome?
I’m still looking for mine. It’s, of course, possible to make mistakes. Knowing self can be a difficult job, but never mind that. I’ll keep trying and if you’re into it, keep trying as well. We’ll get it!
Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
I’ve said it before, but let’s make if “official”.
I hereby declare my sovereignty from all governments, all nations and all laws. I am not a croatian. I am not european.
I am an inhabitant of the Planet Earth and this is its flag.
Mind you I can make my own flag if I want to. I can stand by multiple flags of my own making or my own choosing, but none of the national ones. None!
I wont even call myself a “citizen” because that might imply someone has to grant me “citizenship”. I live on Earth so I am an inhabitant, nothing more, nothing less. You could say that I live in Croatia and am therefore an inhabitant of croatia, but I’ll take that as meaning that you call this general area to be “croatia”, but borders don’t matter.
Do I have the right to make these kinds of proclamations? Well, do I own myself? Yes. If you believe otherwise, prove it!